Being involved with Charles has whetted my appetite. I want something beautiful and substantial, interesting, and captivating.

It is absolutely horrid that these people will use the bombings in London to try and foster support for this occupation and disrespect of the people of Iraq and Afghanistan. The british need to 1. Get rid of Tony Blair and 2. Withdraw troops from those regions. Alice Walker where are you dear?

The first of offers for teaching positions are coming in! I feel a mix of excitement, nausea, and fear. I need to channel the spirits of Howard Zinn, Angela Davis, and bell hooks! Please be with me along the way! I want nothing but good spirits with me at this time!

Today I am going to write about something that I should and want to, now, address. I had a friendship(which was quite sincere on my part), but which was very much abused. It will never be fitting for anyone to take their frustrations out on me because they have not gotten the job that they wanted. I had sensed a few times a bit of class resentment (along with a bit of white male righteousness) on the part of this person, but simply brushed it aside. However, when his job failed to materialize, it really showed through in one of our last conversations in which he referred to me as being "bougie," among other things which I don't remember. Alas, I dont care how much I may like you, you won't take it out on me when the world doesnt go your way. The dynamics of a lower-middle class white boy trying to reach up and being resentful of middle class Blacks shows a lot, especially how in this country it doesnt matter what your class is, to be white is supposed to mean that you have power, privilege, and legitimacy. Not in my book. And alas, I will lay it out a bit that now this person who has an undergraduate degree in Women's studies (no money) and wants to find a job in computers (ha!) and who will be going to a second-rate graduate school in California with no funding(as much as I don't like Purdue, it is established and I was funded;-) Anyway, there is always something to learn from.